2 Corinthians 12:9-10

New International Version (NIV)

9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Friday, May 20, 2011

Rock Bottom

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Rock bottom is an emotional state.  When your will is gone and your faith is shattered and there is no hope in sight.  When you have fallen so far and there is no further down you can go.  When you have completely given up, completely surrendered, when there is just no more fight. When you are so emotionally exhausted that you finally put your hands up and finally have figured out that there is no way you can do it on your own.  When you are weary and weak and have lost your way.

The other day I really felt like I was at that point.  Feeling hopeless and abandoned, worthless and rejected.  Around the same time I ran across this article about a girl with similar problems to mine and how with God she overcame all of her obstacles.  In that moment I felt God talking to me.  He wanted me to know that He was still there.  Regardless of what I was going through, regardless of what I had done, He was still there.  He was there waiting, patiently waiting on me to realize how far away I was from Him and just how much I needed Him.

Later that day I read something that stated "God knows when we have truly surrendered".  At this point I had realized that I was trying conquer things on my own, which was leading to my own demise. Once again I was overcome by an assurance that I had not been forgotten but that I had only lost my way.  God was quick and eager to show me once I was willing to open my eyes to see. 

When we hit rock bottom and think we have nowhere to go, when we think that we no longer have the strength to go on, look up.  Look to the Maker of the mountains you cannot climb, for He is waiting and He will move those mountains for you.
Psalm 121 (NIV) 1 I lift up my eyes to the mountains— where does my help come from? 2 My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth. 3 He will not let your foot slip— he who watches over you will not slumber; 4 indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. 5 The LORD watches over you—the LORD is our shade at your right hand;6 the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night. 7 The LORD will keep you from all harm—he will watch over your life;8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.

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