2 Corinthians 12:9-10

New International Version (NIV)

9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Thursday, July 12, 2012

He Never Said It Would Be Easy

To say that the past few weeks have been trying would be an understatement.  Wondering how I am still standing can only be explained by the power of God.

My grandmother passed away a few weeks ago.  She was the last of my grandparents and the one that I was closest to.  I remember spending summers there with her.  Even funnier remembering her fussing at me for something silly.  I can't tell you how much I miss that.  She led a full life, an amazing life at that and she passed at the age of 91.  I will miss her dearly but will rest in the fact that she had such an amazing life.

About a week after that my mom had to bring my dad to the hospital he was shaking and running fever.  She was only back a day after returning from Honduras (that is where she is from) and now exhausted was up for another task.  My dad had pnemonia in both lungs.  What was even worse was he was unable to swallow because of damage done to his tongue.  

A few years ago my dad had a really bad infection in his inner ear due to getting water in his ear (he had holes in his ears from tubes).  The doctors refused to diagnose his infection for over six months insisting that his cancer had returned.  Finally he found a doctor that would treat the infection with antibiotics but by then the infection had already done its damage.  It finished off what the radiation didn't get.  Now his swallowing doesn't work properly and food and water get into his lungs which caused the pneumonia.

So now in order for my dad to get nutrition, in order for him to eat and avoid a relapse, they had to put in a feeding tube.  If felt like such a moment of defeat, like we had lost.  He stayed a week in the hospital and then another week in a rehabilitation facility.

The Monday after he was released, he was back at work, taking it all in stride.  What faith and what a will to live.   He now carries around a bag with his name on it with his food.  While my mother has become a pro at making him meals just for his tube.  Bed ridden, as if, this is my dad we are talking about.  I really don't know how he does it.  As for my mother she has adapted just as well as my dad. "It is what it is,"  is what I seem to hear a lot.

We were never promised an easy life.  In fact this life is hard most of the time.   But I feel like if it is this hard then I must be doing something right.  This life is simply a test of character and how you handle situations and circumstances will only strengthen who you are and your faith.

God never promised easy, but He did promise that it would be worth it.

James 5:11

11 As you know, we count as blessed those who have persevered. You have heard of Job’s perseverance and have seen what the Lord finally brought about. The Lord is full of compassion and mercy.