Even When I Cannot See

My dads last doctors appointment didn't go as well as hoped.  It turns out that this last PET scan showed a suspicious spot,  they would have to do a biospy to confirm whether or not it is cancer.  Not sure if he will have the biospy or not, not really sure if he is really worried about it.  He has been fighting an infection in his head for months due to all of the dead tissue from radiation (sorry so graphic). So to us the suspicious spot could be anything.

The worst part is my dad has been having blind spells.  His vision goes completely black and for a short period of time he cannot see.  After seeing a specialist they suspect pressure on the brain from too much spinal fluid causing his temporary blindness.  Sometimes I wonder if it will ever end.  Will it ever get back to normal?  He is too young to have so many problems.  I know he and my mom are both exhausted from all of this. As if the disease itself wasn't bad enough.

Through it all my dads faith has remained strong.  I am sure he has his moments, but to us his faith is unfailing.  He has accepted God's will whatever it may be.   He doesn't seem to be afraid.  If only my faith could be so strong.

I know that everything happens for a reason.  But all I can think of is God's humble servant Job.  I compare my dad to him a lot because through it all they may have asked "why", but they never lost faith, they praised God for everything. Even when they could not see.

Job 1:20-22 (NIV, ©2011) 20 At this, Job got up and tore his robe and shaved his head. Then he fell to the ground in worship 21 and said:
“Naked I came from my mother’s womb, and naked I will depart.[a] The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away; may the name of the LORD be praised.”
22 In all this, Job did not sin by charging God with wrongdoing.