Image by Frabuleuse via Flickr I've been quite confused about a lot of things lately. It is almost surreal, like an out of body experience. Not sure if I am coming or going. Almost as if I am just in limbo. I hate this feeling. Aren't we supposed to progress in life, not just stay in the same place for a long time? But maybe I am judging my progress by my own standards. Maybe there are lessons that I need to learn before I can move forward. Maybe my stubbornness is holding me back, and I am just too stubborn to see it.
I am a very strong willed person. I was born that way. Even through being strong willed I believe is a good trait, it is also lead to ones own destruction. Not being able to let go and let Someone else take the wheel. Wanting to do things my way and getting confused when there is no progress. Wondering what am I doing wrong?
The problem is I think that I am doing what I am supposed to be doing. Thinking now that I've got it all wrong. Maybe I am doing all the right things but just for the wrong reasons. That just makes it all pointless.
God wants me to trust Him. He wants me to feel secure in knowing that He is in charge of my future. He doesn't want me to be confused. He wants me to succeed. I just have to let Him lead.
New International Version (NIV)
8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.