Image by Leonard John Matthews via FlickrI hate going to the doctor, although I always seem to be going to the doctor. I am a hypochondriac. I worry about everything. Every little ache and pain I think it is something serious.
Well, today I had a doctors appointment. It was a follow up appointment, but I had to have an ultrasound on my kidneys. Last year I had a kidney infection and been having problems on and off since. So as I am waiting for what seems to be years on my results I start worrying. Everything and anything starts going through my head. Worst case scenario. Preparing myself for horrible news.
The truth is I haven't really been having that many problems lately, it was just a routine follow up. A just to make sure its not something more serious appointment. An appointment that was scheduled six weeks prior because it wasn't any kind of rush or concern. Yet, there I was worrying, my heart was racing, I couldn't think straight. What was taking so long? I felt like I was waiting forever. I just kept praying that nothing was wrong and if it was that God give me the strength to get through whatever was ahead. In the end everything was fine. There was nothing that I needed to worry about.
I started to think what am I doing? I kept saying it was in God's hands but that didn't really keep my from going crazy with worry. Why didn't I trust Him enough with this little thing? Why didn't I trust Him with something that wasn't even a concern?
Even "Christians" faith sometimes fall short. We are good at telling others to have faith, to put it in God's hands. But yet when it comes to us, we still worry. And I worry about things that I don't even need to worry about.
There is nothing that comes to us that doesn't go through God's hands first. He is holding it in His hands and only allows enough to fall on us while He carries the rest. We need not worry because God will always see us through, even with the little things, especially with the big things.
1 Peter 5:7 (NIV) 7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
Isaiah 41:10 (NIV)10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Psalm 16:8 (KJV) 8 I have set the LORD always before me: because he is at my right hand, I shall not be moved.