Image by KellyB. via FlickrOn my way to work this morning, I was preparing myself. Preparing myself for what I was going to do, what I was going to say, because yesterday wasn't the best of days. But I had attitude, I was ready for a challenge, but not in a good way. I was ready to say something and that something was not very nice.
Then, I stopped for moment from my preparation. I took a step back and realized what I was doing. I realized that my heart was not in the right place. I was focusing on what I wanted to do, not what I needed to do. I shouted to God "throw me back in the fire, because I am not reflecting you." After making this observation it instantly melted my pride. For it was then that I realized that it is not worth it. It is not worth it to get back at someone, it is not worth it to hurt someone because you can. It is not worth it to lose ones soul in order to gain a foothold on this earth. It is not worth it. I don't always get it right, but I try.
Sometimes it drives me nuts when God stops me in my tracks, but then I realize that he is only saving me from me. Another lesson learned in my daily walk in faith.
The Refiner's Fire is what it is called, there are dozens of songs and stories that talk about this fire. It compares the way God is with us to a refiner with his silver. The only way the silver can be purified is though fire and the refiner knows when it is done when he can see his reflection in the silver. That is how God will know when we are done, when he can see his reflection in us.
Zechariah 13:9 (NIV) 9 This third I will bring into the fire; I will refine them like silver and test them like gold. They will call on my name and I will answer them; I will say, 'They are my people,' and they will say, 'The LORD is our God.' "