I would describe myself as a pretty easygoing person. I always try to go out of my way to help people. Until I start to feel taken advantage of, then I can feel the old me slowly rearing her ugly little head. The old me, the word that would describe her best is a word I choose not to share. The old me, the one that hits below the belt, the one that knows exactly what your weakness is and will not hesitate to point it out. I locked her up a long time ago, but every once in a while I see her face. When people try to get the best of me and there she is to step in. Why is that?
Because I hate having to turn the other cheek. Why do I have to be submissive and let people walk all over me? Does God really want us to be a push over?
Matthew 5: 39 But I tell you, Do not resist an evil person. If someone strikes you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also. 40And if someone wants to sue you and take your tunic, let him have your cloak as well. 41If someone forces you to go one mile, go with him two miles. 42Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you. 43"You have heard that it was said, 'Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.' 44But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, 45that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous.
Today was one of those days. I felt like a co-worker was taking advantage of me. I didn't turn the other cheek. I was mad, because this wasn't the first time. Usually I can let things slide but today the old me was quite resistant to go back into her box. Although she didn't fully come out, enough was done that would show a piece of her.
On the way home from work a little voice in my head said, "how could you have handled that better?" Shut up!!!!! I want to get the last word, I want people to know that they can't take advantage of me. Then I took a deep breath and accepted the fact that the little voice was right.
God doesn't want us to be submissive or a push over, He wants us to be a reflection of Him. He wants people to see Him in us, in our actions, in our words. It is more important for them to see a reflection of Him, then it is for us to get the last word, or to know that we made our point.
How can someone ever learn about Him, if they never see Him?